Pay attention to every moment, because the opportunity-the 'magic moment'- is within our reach, although we always try let it pass by because we feel guilty. So try not to waste your time blaming yourself; the universe will see to correcting you if you're not worth of what you are doing.
But you are in the desert. so immerse yourself in it. the desert will give you an understanding of the world; in fact, anything on the face of the earth will do that. you don't even have to understand the desert. all you have to do is contemplate a simple grain of sand, and you will see in it all the marvels of creation.
It's because I dream of being accepted and respected, though I don't owe anything to anyone. Why do I need that? I waste my time on worries, regrets, and darkness - a darkness that only enslaves me, chaining me to a rock where I'm served up as food for birds of prey, a rock that I can no longer leave.