There's no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love. There is only a scarcity of resolve to make it happen.
I am realistic – I expect miracles.
If you are living out of a sense of obligation you are slave.
Your Highest Self only wants you to be at peace. It does not judge, compare, or demand that you defeat anyone or be better than anyone.
With everything that has happened to you, you can either feel sorry for yourself or treat what has happened as a gift. Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose.
The fact that you are willing to say, 'I do not understand, and it is fine,' is the greatest understanding you could exhibit.